Friday, May 22, 2015

Five Friday Favourites

It's time for another Friday Favourites! This week has been extremely busy as my first ever event has been approved for Reach Out so I am slowly attempting to work out what needs to be done and starting my never ending to do list regarding it, thankfully its not until July so I have plenty of time! I am also trying to start my next assignment for my diploma after finishing the text book on Tuesday which is why there is only 5 (plus its fun to say).
Monday is also looking extremely busy due to having an interview at 8.00am before my caring work at 9.00am. I'm not complaining though as the job market has been slowing down and I thought the next time I would get an interview would be in August at the earliest! I am just praying that this job is the right one for me and I know if its meant to be God will do all the hard work :)

Its Kind of a Funny Story - I know I have mentioned this film somewhere on here ages ago, but its become a renewed favourite. I love the storyline and how it shows mental illness in a positive and funny light. Its well worth a watch if you can track it down :)

Maybelline Master Glaze Blush Stick - I am always after something that is quick to apply, looks good and lasts all day and this blush does it all, I just swipe some on the apples of my cheeks, blend with my fingers and I am good to go! I love the Just Pinched Pink (not pictured) as it looks natural but still gives a bit of colour.

Saint Anything by Sarah Dessen - I always go to Sarah Dessen when I need a good chick book and her latest does not disappoint! The blurb reads (taken from Book Depository):
Peyton, Sydney's charismatic older brother, has always been the star of the family, receiving the lion's share of their parents' attention and - lately - concern. When Peyton's increasingly reckless behavior culminates in an accident, a drunk driving conviction, and a jail sentence, Sydney is cast adrift, searching for her place in the family and the world. When everyone else is so worried about Peyton, is she the only one concerned about the victim of the accident? Enter the Chathams, a warm, chaotic family who run a pizza parlor, play bluegrass on weekends and pitch in to care for their mother, who has multiple sclerosis. Here Sydney experiences unquestioning acceptance. And here she meets Mac: gentle, watchful, and protective, who makes Sydney feel seen, really seen, for the first time.
All of Sarah's books are standalone novels but take place in the same fictional locations so you may come across some familiar faces while reading it. Even if you haven't read her books before do check this one out as once you start reading her you can't stop!

Ways to look after yourself while volunteering - this article is really helpful and a great read if you volunteer! I'm also not just saying this because theres a photo of me in it (excuse how bad it looks, I was super tired due to Zumba and pitching ReachOut stuff to people), a lot of the tips are good for life in general as well.

This picture:
 Megan managed to get a cold the other week that wouldn't go away so she had quite a few days off school which resulted in her colouring in a variety of pictures including the one above. The guy who is head of all the youth ambassadors at Reach Out loves One Direction so I got Megan to write 'Reach Out Rocks!' on it and I scanned it in and emailed to him (he thought it was awesome). I have to admit that I am extremely impressed with her colouring skills and attention to detail :)

Friday, May 15, 2015

All about Reach Out

This week is national volunteer week so it seems fitting to do a post all about the organisation I volunteer for Reach Out. A few weeks ago I decided to apply to be a Youth Ambassador for Reach Out never thinking for one moment I would get in but I did and after a crazy fun workshop the other weekend I am officially one.

Why Reach Out?
I have never been one to hide the fact I have anxiety and have struggled with it. I was diagnosed with it when I was 12 and have been learning how to live with it ever since! I was looking at testing myself (or really my anxiety) when a post from Reach Out popped up on my Facebook feed regarding being a Youth Ambassador and the rest is history. I have always wanted to get the word out that having a mental illness is ok and Reach Out lets me to do this in a supportive environment.

What does being a Youth Ambassador involve?
Going to schools and giving talks and presentations. Doing fundraising. Organising stalls at events. Talking to local politicians about mental illness. If there is a way to spread the word about Reach Out and mental illness in young adults out we will be doing it!

How you can get involved? by clicking here, liking the official Reach Out Facebook page or following them on Twitter.

Mental illness is what I call a closeted illness as its not often spoken about and if you suffer with it its considered a sign of weakness. I have been told quite a few times that its all in my head and to just get over it, which is out of line in my books. You don't tell someone with diabetes to just get over it, just because you can't see it. Mental illness is something that needs to spoken about and people need to know that its ok to suffer from it.

Young adults have enough happening in their lives as it is and it should be ok to talk about your mental health. This is where Reach Out comes in, they want to let young people that its ok to have a mental illness and that its ok to have to (and want to) get help. 1 in 4 young people will have a mental illness, to put this in perspective in a high school of 1000, 250 of those students will have a mental illness and it will affect their daily lives.

High School, Uni and TAFE can all be stressful at times add to the fact its also around the time people are trying to find their identity and figure out their place in the world its no wonder that its when mental illness is most often diagnosed.

Reach Out's aim isn't just let people know that having a mental illness is ok on the site you will find the following:
  • Forums - where you can chat to people and discuss your struggles with mental illness, play games and make new friends.
  • Tough Times - a place where you can access articles relating to a variety of tough times you (or your friends) may face.
  • Wellbeing - everything from study tips to healthy eating if you are trying to make a positive change in your life start here!
  • Apps and Tools - Reach Out has a wide variety of apps with apps to help with life tracking, problem solving and wellbeing. Plus you can even sign up to get SMS tips!
Another Reach Out Youth Ambassador told me that she thinks of Reach Out being the Google for young adults if you need help with something Reach Out will have it covered. That couldn't be more on point, no matter what you are going through Reach Out is there to help.

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Running Away

Like most people during my teenage years I threatened to run away, not once or twice though but many times. This was always when my anxiety had reached its peak and life got too hard, of course being the uneducated teenager I was I didn't realise that I couldn't run away from my anxiety as it was in my head. I gave my parents so much grief during those episodes because what can you do when a 15 year old is screaming that she is going run away because she can't face school or the next obstacle in front of her? You can threaten and punish all you want but at the end of the day she has to want to face it not you. I packed my suitcase more times than I can remember but never getting beyond the front yard, because as much as my anxiety was an obstacle the unknown world was a bigger one. After every episode I would come to my senses and face the obstacle to the best of my abilities, I can't remember what those obstacles were but I can tell you that I got over them (with a lot of difficulty at times!).
My life has been full of obstacles from dreading playing sport due to having Dyspraxia and getting teased because of it, to having full blown anxiety attacks 2 hours in to a new job nothing seems to be easy for me.
Sometimes I dream about packing everything up and driving a way from it all, but one thing stops me it may be a good decision now but is it really a good decision for the future? This is what I keep reminding myself late at night when the future gets too overwhelming and the fear of uncertainty gets too much. Running away is never the answer no matter how good it may seem at the time.

Friday, May 8, 2015

Its ok to let the tears fall

As you get older you get told that its not ok to cry, you shouldn't admit to crying and that when you do happening to cry in front of others its an embarrasment to them as much as it is for you. This morning I was checking my emails and I came across the dreaded email telling me unfortunately I didn't get the job I went for on Monday, the one I so badly wanted and I felt I was perfect for. Without warning the tears fells and I found myself putting myself down 'You shouldn't have said that' 'why did you have to be so distracted on that one question!' 'you would've failed at it anyway' were just some of the thoughts that went through my head. In situations like that I run, I quickly posted an update on Facebook (as I promised so many of my friends that I would them know when I heard back), texted my parents, then I got in my car, dropped my sister off at the bus stop and went through my iPod until I found some Echosmith and blasted it. I drove until I reached the shopping centre I had to be at to run some errands and distracted myself. I lost myself in the aisles of Priceline trying to find blue eyeliner and picking up some face wipes, I found the ribbon I needed for a project at Riots and did some window shopping.
When I got home I checked my emails again and responded to a couple that I needed to but hadn't due to be distracted before and there the email was in my inbox staring at me and the tears once again fell. I read my friends nice comments on Facebook telling me that the company doesn't know what's its missing not hiring me and I will find the right job eventually and answered a call from my Dad telling me is proud of doing so much to find work and to hang in there.
I let the tears fall and it helped. Its ok to be sad and disapointed, its ok to feel gutted and wonder what you're missing if you know in your heart you did the best you could, its ok to let the tears fall.

Because no matter what they say its ok to cry whether your alone or in front of people, whether you sad, disapointed or another feeling completely. Its ok to let the tears fall.

Monday, May 4, 2015


I am finally unwinding after what seems like a whirlwind past few days. On Saturday and Sunday I attended a workshop to become a Youth Ambassador for ReachOut this is such an amazing charity and you will be hearing a lot more about it in the future (there will be a whole post dedicated to it coming up so watch this space)! Today I had my caring job where I did Zumba for the first time ever which was interesting followed by the job interview. I actually felt confident going into the interview maybe because it was my weekend had been so full on and the workshop was actually in the same location or maybe it was because I had done work experience there (but in a completely different building) I don't know but I do know I did my best. I find out if I get the job sometime next week and I am praying that I do but for now I am trying to put it out of my mind.
Last night I grabbed a pen and paper and wrote down things I learnt from this past weekend and came up with the following:
  • Its ok to be anxious.
  • You can become friends with 21 strangers just from being in a room with them for 2 days and sharing a common interest/goal.
  • I can push myself out of my comfort zone and be completely fine.
  • I don't give myself enough credit at times.
  • It feels good to put myself out there.
  • That I want to share my experiences with anxiety (and general mental illness) with young people and let them know its ok.
  • Everyone has different strengths and its good to workout what they are so you use them to reach your full potential.
  • Sometimes making a spontaneous decision to do something can change your life for the better.

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Maybe being spontaneous pays off

A couple of weeks ago a potential job caught my eye I didn't want to apply for it because I had applied to work there many times to no success (pretty sure it has been 4 times!). I ended up applying to work there because I have been trying to be more spontaneous and this seemed like another opportunity. But I made a deal with myself if at anytime I began feeling stressed about the application I could walk away and that I wasn't to overthink it. I decided that I would try another selection criteria method rather than my usual dot point way, I typed up paragraphs proving that I could do what they asked regarding the question. I finished the application without stressing (much), only walking a way once (to take some deep breaths) and getting through a whole bag of vanilla shake flavoured M&Ms. I then went back to submitting my first assignment for my Diploma (which I passed) like nothing had happened.
These past couple of weeks have been busy I have been named a Youth Ambassador for ReachOut (the volunteer position I applied for here) which means I have been trying to get organised for the workshop this weekend. I have started my next assignment which I am aiming to submit on Friday. All while ignoring the fact that I have submitted this job application.
Today my phone rang (which made me jump) and as soon as the voice on the other end said they were from the place where I had applied my heart rate picked up and I now have an interview on Monday afternoon. Once again I'm not going to overthink it which will for once be easy considering this weekend I have the workshop and in the morning before the interview I am caring for Megan's friend so there will be very little time to overthink it!
The big thing is it was spontaneous to apply for the job and for the volunteer position so maybe being spontaneous pays off :)

If you could pray that this job interview goes well that would be great, I would really like this job and am feeling over the whole job application process so I would like to see an end to it all!

Thursday, April 23, 2015

All about Jocelyn

Continuing with the sister interviews today :) Jocelyn is my youngest sister there is almost exactly 4 years between us.
When we were little we had to share room which my parents soon learned that it was a bad idea, we kept waking them up at 5.30 every morning. She is also the neat one in the family and I am the organised but messy one so as soon as we moved house it was separate rooms for us. We still fight but it means we get our own spaces.
She will also demand me to bake her various goods such as Cinnamon Scrolls, brownies and her all time favourite swirly cookies. I swear she has a sixth sense when it comes to my baking because as soon as I bake one of her favourites she will randomly appear!
She gets annoyed when I watch Bones without her and when she is sick she always watches Alice in Wonderland (in any version, of which we have many on DVD).
She has the reputation of being the crazy cat lady among her friends so she has quite the collection of cat themed things. She blames me (for some reason?) but I think that may be because she babies her cat Maddy to no end.

Name:  Jocelyn Clare 
Age: 16   
Favourite colour(s): Green and navy blue 
Favourite food:  Curry
Favourite snack: Fruit
Favourite ice cream flavour: Cookies and cream  
Favourite drink: Boost Juice  
Favourite movie(s):  Letters to Juliet
Favourite TV show(s): Bones 
Favourite book(s):  Delirum Series
Favourite band/singer: Relient K  
Favourite subject at school:  Art
Favourite place in the world: Cheynes beach   

Dogs or cats Cats 
Hannah Montana or Lizzie McGuire Lizzie McGuire  
City or country both  
Book or movie depends what mood I'm in  
Essay or speech Speech  
Summer or winter Winter 
Night in or night out night in  
Facebook or twitter facebook   

What is the most annoying thing I do on a regular basis: Talk about odd things or in a weird voice 
What's the worst thing I have ever done to you:  Um, i dont know..? 
What's the best thing I have ever done to you: Bake me yummy desserts. 
On a scale of 1 to 10 (10 being the best) how is my driving: There's always room for improvement   

Finish these sentences: 
I can often be found in my bedroom 
If I had unlimited funds I would give it away to worthy causes/charities/people 
The last time I laughed the hardest was very recently... I laugh a lot 
My favourite cat is Maddy because she's my cat... And she's such a cutie  
I like to annoy Erin by being her sister  

You can read Megan's interview here