Saturday, February 25, 2017

Another Challenge Conquered - No More P Plates!

Driving has always been one of those things I have struggled with, I knew from the moment I sat in the drivers seat things wouldn't be easy. I struggled at the beginning of going round the local uni carpark at 5kms an hour and the thought of even going on roads scared me.
My parents had to find a driving instructor who had experience with people with issues like Dyspraxia because they knew any ordinary instructor wouldn't do. It seemed like whenever I felt I was making progress a setback would happen and I would have to work twice as hard to achieve basic manoeuvrers.
When I finally pass my practical driving test I wanted to shout from the rooftops that I was road worthy and despite all the difficulties I faced I had passed the test. Of course once I had had my license for less than a year I lost it for 3 months, which was a huge set back and one that filled with me with a lot of anxiety. Of course God had a plan and I didn't need to resit any tests to get it back despite being told that I would have to.
Well as of yesterday I have conquered another challenge, I am on my full license! No more P - Plates or limited points on my license, no more feeling like a target for road rage because of the p plates and no more people joking that I am a bad/inexperienced driver because I don't have my full license.
It was strange taking off the P-Plates on my car yesterday morning, they had been a permanent fixture on it since I got it and it was strange looking in rear view mirror and not seeing one as I was reversing. I also felt really exposed like I can't use the excuse 'I am on P-Plates and am still a new driver!' when something happens (which is rare now thankfully!).
Once again despite having Dyspraxia (and anxiety) I have proven to people that I can achieve things even if they just take me a bit longer and I need to work slightly harder to do them.

Wednesday, February 22, 2017

If I can't control it, I won't worry about it and leave it up to God

 'If I can't control it, I won't worry about it and leave it up to God' - this has become something I keep telling myself during this time of unemployment and uncertainty. Late last year it hit me that I can't control the job market or the interviews I get (or don't get) or the jobs that I can apply for. I mean I would love to get a job but I can't control when I get one so I won't try or even attempt to control it. God is so much bigger than people give him credit for and he has the situation under control even if I can't see it.
I have spent the past couple of weeks filling out job applications, updating my resume and writing selection criteria (which I am convinced will be the end of me!). Selection Criteria is one of those things that I always second guess myself on, mainly because you never what exactly the company is looking for in terms of answers, plus it makes the job application process drag on even longer. I triple check my selection criteria and know that I have done my best, then I leave it up to God. I put it out of my mind and just go on with my life knowing that if it's meant to happen God will do the rest of the work.  My employment agency has also been looking over it and they are impressed with each one I email to them, but I can only pray that the companies are too!
I have dreams of landing a job in the next few weeks in the near future but know that it probably won't happen, but with God never say never. I know that starting a new job won't be easy and I will struggle but I also know that this time will be different and that I have better support and my overall mental health is in a good place. If anything this time living alone has really helped me push myself and see just what I can do (of course I miss my family and can't wait to have them home) so going into a new job I will be more confident and aware of just what I can handle.

I am keeping up with my volunteer work and it seems that everywhere I look I have something happening with ReachOut (organising stalls, helping run chill out rooms at events and getting ready for the workshop this weekend) or with mentoring (organising craft activities, helping out at events and attending it every other week). I highly reccomend that if you are looking for work to do some volunteering as it helps build your confidence, learn new skills, meet new people and just keeps you occupied. I use Seek regulary to find job opportunities but have since discovered that they have a volunteer section of the site which is great and well worth checking out if you are unsure how to go about finding volunteer work. ReachOut actually advertises on it when they need casual and one off volunteers for events which is how I heard about it but there is a wide range of volunteer opportunities you just have to find them.

I don't know what the coming weeks will hold but I won't worry about it because afterall: If I can't control it, I won't worry about it and leave it up to God.


Friday, February 10, 2017

Five Friday Favourites

 Its been really odd cold and wet weather here, which has meant I have had to break out my winter clothing. I am a bit annoyed as I swear it's meant to be Summer but then again I would rather the wet weather than the hot dry weather we normally have this time of year. I have been staying inside quite a bit so this fortnight's favourites reflect that.

Riverdale - I had no idea what to expect when I watched the first episode on Netflix but it has me intrigued. I like how it has a mystery element to it but there is something deeper under the surface which I am sure will come out eventually. I am looking forward to seeing where it goes and counting down the days until the next episode gets released!

Ask Reddit - want a fun way to procrastinate that isn't Facebook or Netflix well then Ask Reddit is your solution! People ask interesting questions and the answers are always a suprise. I always find I learn something too from the answers espicially when it comes to questions asked to certain professions regarding interesting situations they have been in (like this one and this one). I will warn you once you start reading it can be really hard to stop!

Maybelline Colour Drama Lipstick - I have been using this in minimalist for quite a while now and I have to admit that its been one of my go to lipsticks. It provides great long lasting colour without drying out my lips and the colour looks good on all skin tones too. I'm not a fan that it needs to be sharpened compared to a normal lipstick but that's more an inconvenience thing than anything else.

The Office boxset - so I took the plunge and bought it! I am seeing many afternoons filled with laughter in my future and can't wait to relive all the fun times, like the clip below.
When the road rage doesn't match the playlist John Crist video - no words needed such a relatable funny video!